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An open letter to my future husband

Hello my dear future husband,

There’s a saying that to have someone valuable, you have to be valuable yourself. Why am I saying this? Because as much as I want to meet you right now and get to know you more, I  will wait and let go and let God do his good work in me and he will be faithful to complete it. As much as I want to treasure you right now, I first have to treasure myself. As Queen Esther waited for one year to meet the King, she also waited from birth up to that point where she was discovered as one of the potential Queen. She was trained and prepared and one day, she met the King and they fell in love. So, right now I am still Esther and still being trained and prepared to meet you. So, Let’s trust God because his ways are higher than our ways, his thoughts are higher than our thoughts, let’s be patient and trust God in everything that we do.

I have been studying very hard and making sure I do my best in every course that I do, sometimes, I get distracted because my friends are in relationships right now, either married already or engaged, or already with a family and makes me think that what is wrong with me, I too have those days that makes me think that you too have those moments.

I am also focusing on my career path so that one day, it’s not just you that is working but also me, we’ll be able to work side by side in raising our family. I am looking to find a stable job so that as I rely in you, you can also rely in me. I will do my very best that both of us will have the education and skill to be able to raise a family of our own.

Sometimes, as a woman, I also have those days that I feel inadequate, I pray to God that may he send you to me now so you can comfort me through my pain and doubts and I know that you might be thinking the same as me, but I’d like you to know that God is always there for you and he loves you, he created us in his own image, so whatever anyone says, You are beautiful! Yes, you are. You are beautifully and wonderfully made. Of course, I would have said you were handsome but the word beautiful encompass both physical and inner beauty, and whats the inside is what’s most important.

How will you know its me? The love I have for you will be built with friendship and love. I pray that as we both wait and when the time comes that God chooses to put my name on your heart, and your eyes will be is open, and that we will be both ready to meet each other.

Love, your future wife.

 

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My dearest…

Looking up as I saw your face

Wondering what its like to taste

Those moments I treasure

As we grew closer together

Full of smiles and laughter

But one day you were gone

Far away from the place

Far away from me

But I never gave up

One day for sure

We will see each other

Even if you might go away again

One day for sure

We will see each other

Now or Forever

 

 

This poem is dedicated to all those who have someone dear to them, say and show that you love them for you don’t know what tomorrow will bring. Thank you to Aunt Connie C. whom I love and inspired me for this poem. RIP Aunt Connie  – Rosette

 

 

 

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Just the way you are

I keep catching a glimpse of myself

On the windows, glass doors, mirrors

What more must I do

To make myself look worthwhile

 

I keep going back and forth

On the hallways and corridors

I keep putting makeup

On my face, cheeks and lips

I keep straightening my hair

Even though its almost burnt to crisp

What more must I do

To make myself look worthwhile

 

Aritzia, Michael Kors, Coach,

The latest trends and form fitting clothes

What more must I buy

To make myself look worthwhile

 

Skipping meals, eating less or eating more

It’s seems like an endless downward spiral of emotion

What more must I do to make myself worthwhile

 

Whatever you’ve been told

Just ignore,

Put your head up high,

Don’t let anyone tell you that you’re not enough,

Even yourself, because you are worthwhile

You are wonderfully and fearfully made

Just the way you are

You are worthwhile

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Sharing my testimony to a stranger

It was a sunny afternoon and I was just sitting in a mall lobby with a lot of couches and chairs where in you could sit and relax. I was tired of walking around and shopping my way through the stores. Originally, I just wanted to hangout with my friends but unfortunately they were all busy, so here I am trying to entertain myself while waiting for my mother to get off from work so we can go home together. I had my earphones on and drinking an iced coffee to quench my thirst. I was listening to a song for which is for our mother’s day presentation at church. Then an old lady made a gesture if she could sit next to me, and I nodded.

After listening to a few more songs, something in me, a thought just said, why don’t you talk to that elderly woman next to you and share the gospel. The next thing I know my body just moved on its own, I stopped listening to my songs and greeted the old lady. I did some small talk and asked if her coffee tasted good and that we both bought from the same store. I asked what stores she shopped on and so forth. Then I asked if she went to church, she said she hasn’t gone for 10 years now, and then that’s when I started to tell my testimony.

I talked about my family, how we didn’t use to go to church and now we are active in the church community. I talked about my life, how I used to be self-centred and a selfish person wanting to gain people’s approval of me. Then I told her how my friend invited me to church and I even said that I stayed because of the people around me and not because of God. Then something changed in me, in a few months, I felt like a new person, my identity is not surrounded by other people anymore but it is built on my faith in Jesus Christ. God is continually working on me, I am growing in love and maturity. I feel at peace with myself, with my identity rooted in God.

Then I asked her if she believed in God and in the afterlife. She said she did believe in God but its been already too long since she went to church in England. With a hint of glimmer in her eyes, she told said, “I hope there is an afterlife.” Then I assured her that God wants you back, to come to Him again because he loves you and that we have hope that there is an afterlife because Jesus died for our sins and he rose on the third day, we have hope that God will resurrect us also, all we have to do is believe in Jesus, that He is the way, the truth and the life. Then while she was about to go, I asked, “What’s your name?” She answered, “Terrence…my name is Terrence.” We exchanged names and I said, ” God bless you.”

I felt really happy that I got to share my testimony to a stranger, I did not force myself to share but I was compelled to do so. I feel happy because I was not the one glorified but the One who was glorified was Jesus Christ through my life.  I hope that when the holy spirit compels you to share your testimony, you will too!

 

 

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You’re Beautiful!

I have seen this movie several times already, and it always touches my heart whenever I watch it. I recommend you watch this, its about Queen Esther and how she became queen. I completely adore Queen Esther and her story of courage and unfading beauty.

I just want to share this verse that is related to Queen Esther and the movie and to all women. I believe each girl out there should always remember this verse.

Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.

1 Peter 3:3-5 

So many women focus on their outward appearance to make themselves attractive but they tend to neglect their inner self and how their character should grow and develop. It should be the other way around. Focus on the inner self- gentle and quiet spirit and the outward beauty will overflow from within. We should try to and start believing that we are beautiful inside and out. Even though it’s hard sometimes to look in the mirror each morning. Deep inside, you are beautiful, adorn yourself with a gentle and quiet spirit like Queen Esther.

In conclusion,

Thank you Lord Jesus for the reminder that I am beautiful first inside and that is more important to focus on the inner beauty than outwardly appearance. Help me to accept what I cannot change with myself and those I can change, help me to strive better and work on myself to become the best version of me. I pray in Jesus name, Amen.

 

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You are Beautiful

beautiful

Being molded and sculpted

Aiming to be Barbie dolls

Even though It’s like being locked behind bars

Unrealistic Perception

Distorted view of oneself

No one is perfect

Perfection is a sickness of society

Why can’t you see

You are beautiful

Just the way you are

Freckles makes you unique

Chubby cheeks, Adorable!

Your laugh is one of a kind

Don’t worry with make up

Less is more

Don’t worry about others

Know that you are worthy

All you need

Is to believe in yourself

You are you

You are beautiful