An open letter to my future husband

Hello my dear future husband,

There’s a saying that to have someone valuable, you have to be valuable yourself. Why am I saying this? Because as much as I want to meet you right now and get to know you more, I  will wait and let go and let God do his good work in me and he will be faithful to complete it. As much as I want to treasure you right now, I first have to treasure myself. As Queen Esther waited for one year to meet the King, she also waited from birth up to that point where she was discovered as one of the potential Queen. She was trained and prepared and one day, she met the King and they fell in love. So, right now I am still Esther and still being trained and prepared to meet you. So, Let’s trust God because his ways are higher than our ways, his thoughts are higher than our thoughts, let’s be patient and trust God in everything that we do.

I have been studying very hard and making sure I do my best in every course that I do, sometimes, I get distracted because my friends are in relationships right now, either married already or engaged, or already with a family and makes me think that what is wrong with me, I too have those days that makes me think that you too have those moments.

I am also focusing on my career path so that one day, it’s not just you that is working but also me, we’ll be able to work side by side in raising our family. I am looking to find a stable job so that as I rely in you, you can also rely in me. I will do my very best that both of us will have the education and skill to be able to raise a family of our own.

Sometimes, as a woman, I also have those days that I feel inadequate, I pray to God that may he send you to me now so you can comfort me through my pain and doubts and I know that you might be thinking the same as me, but I’d like you to know that God is always there for you and he loves you, he created us in his own image, so whatever anyone says, You are beautiful! Yes, you are. You are beautifully and wonderfully made. Of course, I would have said you were handsome but the word beautiful encompass both physical and inner beauty, and whats the inside is what’s most important.

How will you know its me? The love I have for you will be built with friendship and love. I pray that as we both wait and when the time comes that God chooses to put my name on your heart, and your eyes will be is open, and that we will be both ready to meet each other.

Love, your future wife.



My dearest…

Looking up as I saw your face

Wondering what its like to taste

Those moments I treasure

As we grew closer together

Full of smiles and laughter

But one day you were gone

Far away from the place

Far away from me

But I never gave up

One day for sure

We will see each other

Even if you might go away again

One day for sure

We will see each other

Now or Forever



This poem is dedicated to all those who have someone dear to them, say and show that you love them for you don’t know what tomorrow will bring. Thank you to Aunt Connie C. whom I love and inspired me for this poem. RIP Aunt Connie  – Rosette





Be the Hero of your own Life!


When I was little as 10 years old in the year 2003, I played a game called Runescape, it was the most exciting game that I stumbled upon and I played until I was around 16 years old. I remember the times where I would fish lobsters and cut wood, mine ores, bury bones to level my prayer skill and make armour to level up my character. Also going to the wilderness with a friend but then he ends up backstabbing you and taking all your things. Then after that I still played pc and online games that I would say is most familiar with all of you. The sims wherein there was even a freewill button for your sim characters as well as mounts or what we call modes of transportation in games like world of warcraft and mabinogi. I and my online friends would do quests to level up our character and become the HERO of the game. Everyone wanted to become the best of the best and gain money and have the best equipment, which is very similar to the real life when you think about it deeply. 

Nowadays many people are into the internet because our generation revolves around computers and technology. Many young and older people are playing games and some might say they might even be addicted to games. All I know is that I was once spent $300 dollars in one game only for 3 months span, I know that it is not good to lavishly use money just like that on a game but when you are really into the games, you’ll understand how I feel about how you think you have real friends in the internet but actually they are not, I also learned about different kinds of word that I did not know before and my typing and communication skills were better than my other friends, I even learned by myself how to not give away personal information on the internet, which I think many of the younger generations don’t really know how to handle so called pedophiles on the internet. With the fast growing technology, and video apps online, most young people become prey from predators. Well thats it for now for my experience on the internet. 

What Im trying to say is that games are like the real life we live in today and I think the reason why people are so into games and becoming a hero is that its easier than real life and also they, which includes me, numb and masks themselves of the true potential they can have in real life. Its mostly a mental struggle for people to get off the games and quit by themselves or when they’re parents say to do so because they feel like their life is built around the game and that real life is full of pain and struggles so they’re just going to tune in the game instead to numb their pain and struggle or that acceptance you cannot get from your classmates or a real girlfriend or boyfriend in the game. Yes we’ve all been there, don’t try to deny it!

In conclusion, Life is just another game that you are hesitating to tune into, its a hardcore-very detailed-unlimited options-super expert difficulty game wherein as I see it in a gamers point of view, a MMORPG~ A massively multiplayer online role playing game~ wherein you have only one character and you can have equipments like fashionable clothes and your career is which are you in the game? A mage, warrior, ranger etc. Also, your mode of transportation, like in World of warcraft, is a car, the only thing is there are no dragons or tiger mounts instead they are car brands like a BMW. The game is your real life wherein there is no turning back, you work hard for your money and sell/buy items to get richer or just from your career. Its a Sword art online game wherein your nerve gear is attached permanently and you cannot log out. Its a Sims game where the freewill button is ticked permanently. There are also called the after life which is another super duper exciting expansion wherein you will meet the creator of this game who is God and the expansion, well in my case my belief as a Christian, can only depend on how you played your main game which is called LIFE. ~Heaven is wherein you became the HERO of your own life. and ~Hell is wherein you chose the way you wanted to and the consequence of those choices will lead you there. The only thing is I’m not talking about games anymore, am I? Its the real deal! Become a Hero of your own life? or chose a path that is headed towards destruction for eternity.

PS. The manual and instructions can be found in the Bible.

Now go and play the game called LIFE and Be the HERO you were meant to be!


The Gift


When I used to work at a restaurant, I would always talk to an elderly couple that were regular customers. I worked there for 2 years and known them for a year. The woman together with her husband frequently got breakfast and dinner and I would see them in my day shift. Both of them had an inspiring story about their life and children that were all grown up now and have children of their own. They eat at the restaurant right after her dialysis and on the weekend her husband buys the groceries nearby. Ive learned many things while I was working and saying hi to them. Ive learned that people’s stories of their life gives us guidance so that in the future we wont make the same mistake as them but on the brighter side, learn that life is tough but we should cherish each moments and live and laugh with family and friends. Learn from the past, look forward to the future and cherish the present, thats why its called a gift. I appreciate the small things in people and I see Jesus in them.


What is a Friend?


Someone that will listen and make you laugh

Someone to high fives and bro fist

Someone that is there for you whatever time

Someone that will comfort you when you’re feeling down

Someone that laughs with you even though some people might not get the joke

We might not have that someone in our lives but it can be your brother or sister, a classmate, co-worker or an acquaintance.All you and I have to do is to be friendly but as they say, “it takes two to tango.” Not everyone we meet will be our friend, it takes a long time to develop that friendship.