The Pursuit of Happiness

My colleague who is an art therapist introduced me to a therapeutic activity that involves knowing more about yourself, your motives and soul searching. Take time to read and answer these questions in your mind before you read ahead. Be honest with yourself while answering these questions, write it down in your notes and you’ll be surprised how your answers repeats itself and you will get to know yourself more through this activity.

Who am I? Why am I here? Why am I living? Am I truly alive? Who cares? What do you live for? What do you really want in life? Is it all about money? School? Work? Family and friends? Are you sure? Then what? You go to school and work and retire? Is that all there is in life? You live and you die? Then what’s next? …

Most people would say, they want happiness and love in their lives. But what makes a person truly happy? Is it love? Then what is true love?

Is it human nature to look for love and always want to feel and know that someone out there truly loves them? Are you wishing someone will notice you and reciprocate your feelings towards them? Someone who is always there for you? Someone who will never fail you and loves you unconditionally?

I realized that there is one answer to all of these questions.

The sign of love is the cross. Jesus humbled himself in the form of a human baby born in a manger. He lived a holy and sinless life submitting himself to the will of the Father. Jesus loves us because he died on the cross for our sins.He hates sin but loves the sinner.He is not mad at us, he is madly in love with us.

Situations with family & friends may arise but I learned that everything happens for a reason and that is to make us a better and stronger person, our character is being developed into christ-likeness. I thank God everyday for I am blessed, I learned to appreciate people, I live in the moment. I have achieved happiness through Christ Jesus and I am who I am, I make mistakes, I still stumble but I refuse to give up. I believe in myself and I want to learn to love others just as Jesus loves me and most importantly, love Jesus with all my heart, soul and mind.

I have always wondered what is happiness, and I have been searching and looking for it even now. I have caught a glimpse of it and it is very awesome indeed. It truly shaped my relationship with my family and friends, career and everything in my life. I want to share my experiences and insights about my life so that people will know it is not impossible to achieve happiness and real joy and that the pursuit of happiness is life changing and precious and is an ongoing process, the pursuit of happiness and love is Jesus.


An open letter to my future husband

Hello my dear future husband,

There’s a saying that to have someone valuable, you have to be valuable yourself. Why am I saying this? Because as much as I want to meet you right now and get to know you more, I  will wait and let go and let God do his good work in me and he will be faithful to complete it. As much as I want to treasure you right now, I first have to treasure myself. As Queen Esther waited for one year to meet the King, she also waited from birth up to that point where she was discovered as one of the potential Queen. She was trained and prepared and one day, she met the King and they fell in love. So, right now I am still Esther and still being trained and prepared to meet you. So, Let’s trust God because his ways are higher than our ways, his thoughts are higher than our thoughts, let’s be patient and trust God in everything that we do.

I have been studying very hard and making sure I do my best in every course that I do, sometimes, I get distracted because my friends are in relationships right now, either married already or engaged, or already with a family and makes me think that what is wrong with me, I too have those days that makes me think that you too have those moments.

I am also focusing on my career path so that one day, it’s not just you that is working but also me, we’ll be able to work side by side in raising our family. I am looking to find a stable job so that as I rely in you, you can also rely in me. I will do my very best that both of us will have the education and skill to be able to raise a family of our own.

Sometimes, as a woman, I also have those days that I feel inadequate, I pray to God that may he send you to me now so you can comfort me through my pain and doubts and I know that you might be thinking the same as me, but I’d like you to know that God is always there for you and he loves you, he created us in his own image, so whatever anyone says, You are beautiful! Yes, you are. You are beautifully and wonderfully made. Of course, I would have said you were handsome but the word beautiful encompass both physical and inner beauty, and whats the inside is what’s most important.

How will you know its me? The love I have for you will be built with friendship and love. I pray that as we both wait and when the time comes that God chooses to put my name on your heart, and your eyes will be is open, and that we will be both ready to meet each other.

Love, your future wife.



My dearest…

Looking up as I saw your face

Wondering what its like to taste

Those moments I treasure

As we grew closer together

Full of smiles and laughter

But one day you were gone

Far away from the place

Far away from me

But I never gave up

One day for sure

We will see each other

Even if you might go away again

One day for sure

We will see each other

Now or Forever



This poem is dedicated to all those who have someone dear to them, say and show that you love them for you don’t know what tomorrow will bring. Thank you to Aunt Connie C. whom I love and inspired me for this poem. RIP Aunt Connie  – Rosette





Just the way you are

I keep catching a glimpse of myself

On the windows, glass doors, mirrors

What more must I do

To make myself look worthwhile


I keep going back and forth

On the hallways and corridors

I keep putting makeup

On my face, cheeks and lips

I keep straightening my hair

Even though its almost burnt to crisp

What more must I do

To make myself look worthwhile


Aritzia, Michael Kors, Coach,

The latest trends and form fitting clothes

What more must I buy

To make myself look worthwhile


Skipping meals, eating less or eating more

It’s seems like an endless downward spiral of emotion

What more must I do to make myself worthwhile


Whatever you’ve been told

Just ignore,

Put your head up high,

Don’t let anyone tell you that you’re not enough,

Even yourself, because you are worthwhile

You are wonderfully and fearfully made

Just the way you are

You are worthwhile











How to hear the voice of God

While I was in my social media website, I saw this video of people trying to call a flock of sheep to come to them but the more they called out,the more the sheep kept their distance away from the people who were calling them. Then the shepherd of the flock of sheep called out his sheep and they immediately approached the shepherd. I was amazed on how the sheep responded to the call of their master, the sheep know their masters voice and follow him.  This reminded me of the teaching that Jesus said in John 10 which is The Good Shepherd and His sheep.

14 “I am the good shepherd; I know my sheep and my sheep know me— 15 just as the Father knows me and I know the Father—and I lay down my life for the sheep.16 I have other sheep that are not of this sheep pen. I must bring them also. They too will listen to my voice, and there shall be one flock and one shepherd. 

How can we hear the voice of God?

When we hear the voice of God, it is an inner voice not an external voice. His voice is spontaneous and the words that you hear uplifts you, it is a still small voice that is peaceful and teaches the truth, it encourages.

This happened to me awhile back, I was praying for my insecurities and flaws and then when I finished praying, I went back to my computer, then a thought came to me, “Read Psalm 139.” I do not know what is written on that passage and I did not read that before, I became curious and read it. I was so amazed on how God answered my prayer, he reassured me that I was unique and beautiful for He created me.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;your works are wonderful, I know that full well. (Psalm 139:14 NIV)

The voice of the holy spirit is spontaneous and we did not initiate it, our own thoughts are planned. Sensing the voice of the holy spirit in our hearts, you will recognize the voice of the holy spirit.

How can we be more attentive and know which thoughts are not from God? 

The voice of the enemy shouts at you, will accuse, put you down, he will lie and condemn. Always ask yourself, How does that voice make you feel? Angry? Irritated? Jealous? Then it is not from God but from Satan. The devil comes to steal, kill and destroy. He is a master manipulator, a lier and he and will do everything that he can to distract us and weaken us, he wants us to doubt ourselves, and confuse us so that we will be away from God.

It is important to read the bible because God will always speak to you from the bible, He will encourage and guide us through the right path through his word. The devil will twist and pervert God’s word so we must always be attentive and know the truth and read the bible daily.

Therefore, we must sieve through all our thoughts and those that do not come from God but from the enemy, we must ignore and cast off. Do not entertain those destructive thoughts and isolate ourselves. For example, those who are depressed always have negative thoughts about themselves and in life. Do not entertain those thoughts that are not from God, do not isolate yourself and ask for help. Shield yourself from the attacks of the enemy, wear the Armour of God, stand your ground and reconcile with your fellow brethren every week at church so that all of you can renew your strength.






I hope dreams do come true.

This was my dream last night, as father’s day approaches, I was overwhelmingly filled with joy as I dreamed of a revelation that the holy spirit, wanted me to share to all of you. This dream has a lot of symbolism and I wrote down to be best of my ability how this vision was portrayed to me.

As I lay flat, I could see a dim light over my left side and as I continue to wake, I realize that I am covered with paper while being carried on top of a trolley in some dark unknown place. I get to a place covered with other paper materials, little bits of them lay on a circular machine like object. I stood up and saw a huge spiral machine with sharp claws, immediately it started talking, it said that I was going to be shredded because I was not whole or complete. The machine pointed at the paper on top of me, they were pictures of my life. Then I said, what do you mean whole or complete?  what are these shredded paper all over the ground? Then it dawned on me that it was I that was going to be shredded because it was dark all around, I didn’t know if the pictures of my life was complete. Then I started praying to God to remove me from my situation and help me. I waited but I was afraid of dear life. Then I started talking to the life-like machine and said, God loves you. It broke down but not to the extent that it was broken, it was still ready to shred me to bits and pieces. It kept mumbling, that it wanted to go inside the gates but they wouldn’t allow it.

I managed to get away, I saw a staircase leading downstairs and went to there, then I saw that I was in a warehouse, it was very dark and dirty. Then I walked around until one odd looking man and his friend started to approach me. They looked very shady so I put some distance between us. I started to converse with them and they seem to laugh and joke around, so I was entertained. I was beginning to like it there. Then I saw someone from afar, with white clothing, and realized thats where I am supposed to be. I started going in their direction and those two shady looking men started to persuade and entice me with various things. It was tough but then I managed to go atop of three tables, I immediately went to the middle of the table and realized it was easy to be there. I thought to myself, was I saved? thats it? No, those two shady men kept harassing me and the ones with white clothing kept saying, Come here! This way, not the easy way around!

So I managed to go to the white corner but there was a deep struggle, I was in a narrow path and I was still enticed with the worldly pleasures, and as I continue to walk, I see myself holding on steel bars just so those shady men won’t get to me. Until an invisible force like gravity was pulling me horizontally towards the darkness. I persevered and got into the white corner of the warehouse. Then as I walked I seemed to have walked in a portal wherein around me changed, its as if I walked in a gate.

Then I saw several men in a dinning table, feasting and talking to everyone around them. Then I saw one of them was eagerly conversing, more like teaching them, he was the only one that wore a white robe. Immediately I realized, I was interrupting a dinner party of Jesus. Then I bowed down and started to walk towards Him still bowing all the way to the floor. I had thoughts while I worked my way up to Him, there He is the King of Kings and Lord of Lords, yet he is so simple. Then I stared at his eyes as He stared back at mine. His face was the most pleasant and His eyes were the most beautiful like sparkling amethysts. Then He kissed my forehead. As I was beginning to think what should I say to Him? As I spoke, I woke up. I was praying as I awaken.